What a wonderful blessing having you has already been. Here is what I am learning after being your mom for only two short weeks. Taking care of someone your size is harder than I ever gave anyone credit for but at the same time, more beautiful and natural than I ever thought it might be.
You will learn that sometimes I make things way bigger than they need to be (I'm working on it). The first few weeks of your life have been no exception. The amount of energy that went towards a small issue we were working through to get your weight up has consumed conversation and brain space more, than I dare admit. I have decided to move forward and I'm thankful for the community that already surrounds us as I do so. I don't want to miss a moment of this journey consumed with myself or things outside of our control. As for you, you have been a gem and unaware of this worry of mine so I know I need to let it go too.
This is the beauty of it girlie, that God is inviting us to grow as I live in this space of learning a whole new role in life. I feel stretched and moved, humbled and tired of course. I have been thinking a lot about how to start translating our experience into words and want to capture all of this for us.
Before you were born, your Dad and I started talking about writing together and in the next few weeks we are going to make that little dream a reality. We are not 100% sure what direction it might take yet but it will be a combination of my thoughts about "thankfulness" & his deeper perspective on "thoughtfulness". We also want it to be a place where we can work through our own journey as a little family in hopes to encourage others. I can't wait to see where the path takes us next and am so thrilled you are here and along for the ride.
For now I am enjoying every day with you as I tell you all about our family and the things we like to do. We seem to be finding our own little quirks as I read to you from my favorite books in the middle of the night to keep us awake to eat and call you my little "birdie girlie". Thank you for being patient with me and teaching me how to love bigger than myself.
all my heart,
Mom
*More to come on the writing and Hannah but here are a few snapshots of our first few weeks. (PS. everything in her closet has been a gift so far! This girl has more personal shoppers than Macy's!)
This is one of my FAVORITE pictures of her so far by our friend Christy who did our maternity pics as well:
It is a love that is like no other and unexplainable, but you managed to put it into words well. Thinking of you often. Did I ever mention... she is gorgeous!!??
ReplyDeleteThat picture of Hannah in her car seat just kills me! She is so cute! Love your thoughts my friend! Thinking of you often (especially around 3ish-4am)
ReplyDeleteI love that last picture of you and Hannah! Such beautiful girls. :) I hope the weight gain takes a turn for the better (not sure what exactly your situation is?). You are doing well to already be trying to step back and not be consumed by hiccups along the way. It's so easy to dwell on little things as a mom, especially when it's your first baby! You're doing great, so ahead of the curve. I love reading about your lives and keeping up with your sweet babe - praying blessings down on you friend!
ReplyDeleteXOXO, Ash
oh my, and she is even better and more precious in person. so thankful for the time to hold your daughter and hear your heart. love you.
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