Wednesday, June 3, 2009
the difference one year can make
welcome to june, only 3 days late right? This week is flying by and I stopped in my tracks Monday morning, realizing that a year ago (june 1, 2008) was my first day of choosen unemployment. While, maybe not choosen unemployment but working myself out of a job without another one lined up.
I went back and read my first thoughts on this blog at that time, looking for a space to lay my thoughts out to examine.
And oh friends, the difference a year can make. Let's start from the very beginning and at the risk of writing chapters, I think a list will do:
in the past year I...
-left my job and my stability
-left my position with the youth group
-enter identity crisis, stage right
-sat on my couch, coffee shops and the chairs of my interviewers for 5 weeks
-got hired at non-profit development company
-back to coffee shop, but only for a morning as I met my new boss there
-started working for a non-profit, realized it had a short term purpose
-left that job for my old job that I worked so hard to quit
-decided with my husband that he would sell his business and I would be his sugar mamma
-found myself happy there
On a heart level: learned my worth is defined so much deeper than what I am doing, that someday I will love being a mother, watched dear friends get married, friends who struggled to have a baby have their sweet baby girl, learned about grief, learned about joy, watched my husband grow in his faith & joined in for the ride, ran some more miles, experienced anxiety and experienced peace.
I am thankful for the difference that a year can make.